` s h u t up; ___

Sunday, June 05, 2005

oh i realised that i havent blogged for so many weeks and days.
i feel dam bad.
i have offended someone, and she tagged on my blog. but she was ever so polite.
im sorry if i ever said any bad things directed at someone, so i am apologising now.
im really sorry to have offended you.
it's a misunderstanding.
so i decided to delete away that rude post.
it was merely out of pique k.
sorry sorry sorry.
anyway that person i am talking abt is seriously not from our level.
it's actually from sec 1 ok.(shhhh..dont wanna offend my juniors) really. i swear to the lord.

anyway, i shall blog about 2e4 class gathering.
i know i know it's so long ago.
but i was lazy to go online.ppl have been asking me to blog.
so here i am.
so in the morning i met su suan at the tampines mrt station before the class gathering.
i was wearing the black racerback and the knee length OP pink skirt. the skirt was so dam too long. TOO LONG. su suan was wearing this shirt that i also have. but another colour.and her shorts were...well..cute. :D she was already there much earlier before me.and she was there, walking aimlessly, with her headphones plugged on to her MP3 and scratching her head.
HAHA! LOL CUTE!
and we went to watch monster in law. the show was great k. dam dam funny. su suan laughed so loudly. i laughed even louder.
i swear me and her were the only ones screaming with laughter in the cinema.and i got so crazy i even started whacking su suan! haha lols.
diaoness.
we kept going to toilet. actually it was SHE who kept going toilet.
we went 6 times in the space of 1 and a half hours. exaggerating?
after movie went another 3 times.
wow. i have never ever gone to the TM toilet so many times before.
lets just conclude tt we both have extreme bladder problems?
yea. met kwanny in the toilet. she was going with lexxa to visit lena in the hospital before going to class gathering.
so yea after tt went to pastamania.
we ordered the cream chicken spagetthi to share but in the end got the wrong order and we had olive oil one in the end.
it was disgusting. me and her were like puking when we walked out of the shop, because it was too oily.
*i found out su suan loves green day.**hints*
after that met rest of the class at interchange.
half the class came.
she didnt even look at me, and just ignored me.
what kind of a friend is that? judging by what kind of friends i have, what kind of clothes i wear, an she doesnt talk to me? believe me, this is getting seriously irritatiing.
so yeah, we sat bus 29 there. we counted 12 stops for irene.
thereses hse is GIGANTIC.
she has a gigantic pond with railing, and a basement, and basketball net, three storeys, a gigantic tv, and everything, her own toilet.
haha..some ppl are so so lucky man.
not tt i wld want to live in a private property, although it's big and nice, but youll find out why later.
so we were at the gate when something surprising happened.
sherry, andrea, jun rui and pearlyn popped their heads out!
and then sherry said loudly, " hello! we so early hoh! you all why so late huh?!!"
only she sed it very comically, and we all started laughing like mad.
they reached there first i think
yeah so we started watching bring it on
a show full of cheerleading stuff
i like things to do with cheerleading
but it was obscene
i think it should be M18
it showed girls in their bras
i bet all the boys eyes are gorging out
yeah and her 3 year old brother was so cute so cute so cute man
her parents were nice ppl
and we barbequed food ourselves
i ate lamp chop
and later i had food poisoning
felt like puking man
lexxa sed she was very very full
haha
went home with maxine and unnaa
when we walked home it was really really dark and deserted and creepy
we were creeped out and ran to the bustop
tts why i wouldnt want to live in a private property
it's too creepy at night
sat 29
back to interchange
sat 293
went home
slept.
class gathering rocked.
i even shot a few hoops.
starting to like basketball.
feel the urge to go down and shoot some hoops but the indoor court is always occupied with sweaty jocks
so yea
im not going to beijing anymore
kena cancelled by parents
dunno why
i was so pissed off last night i went to sleep early
im not going anywhere this holiday
so darn boring
and so darn pissing off
went to visit grandparents in johore ytd
and then we were on our rounds to each cousins hse
and we went to one
so i was sitting on a swing
and then my girl cuz 2 years older than me comes in with her bf on a motorbike
and then the boy sed " hi aunty" to me.
i was sitting there stupidly staring at him in shock thinking, did i just heard what i think i did?
and then everyone(all my cousins and 2 brothers) started cracking up and laughing and howling like dogs and they kept teasing me for about like so long.
i was BLOODY pissed off.
even my girl cousin was laughing like mad and then the whole big group kept laughing and laughing when they went insde the house and then started howling like crazy insane ppl and they even told my mother and their mother.
this is what i have to say:
OH FUCK YOU TO MY IDIOT COUSINS BOYFRIEND. GO TO HELL YOU STUPID BRAINLESS GIT YOU FUCKNG TOOOT FUCKING FUCKING FUCKING BLISTERING BARNACLE SON OF A BITCH SHAMELSS FUCKING BASTARD GO TO HELL GO TO HELL THATS WHAT YOU GET FOR POKING FUN AT PPL AND YOU HAVE SUCH A QIANBIAN FACE SHUT YR FACE SHUT YR ASS HOLE FRIGGING MOUTH YOU FOUL MOUTH YOU STINKY SNEAKY LITTLELIAR BITCH BAASTARD SHUT UP SHUT UP SUT UP FUCK YOU FUCKKKKKKKK YOU FUCK YOU. GO AND DIE A HORRIBLE DEATH.
oh, dont you worry about me, i am fine, i am perfectly FINE.
his words have not afected me whatsoever.
i should be all forgiving to that son of a bitch.
right?
to all my cousins:
shit you all people.
to my girl cousin:
you have extremely bad taste to be involved with such a *toot* guy.
btw, im really ok. im ECSTATIC. oh, wow.
anw, i still have to see all my cousins this thurs, cuz we are all going to go to desaru for chalet.
OH, HOW GR8T. HOW VERY NICE. VERY VERRRY NICE.IM GONNA BE SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO EXCITED. WOW.

`10:15 PM
shut up; get out of my life

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

today guides was like cool.
me and regina and serena laughed and laughed like hyenas.
as for me, when i laugh, i really go HYPER.OVER THE TOP.
so you know what i did?
while me serena and gina were going to the guides den to give our empty cans after drinking them in the canteen, i dont know what they said but i laughed so hard i fell onto the floor and scraped my knees.
haha! crazy me!
before guides i was in a foul mood.
i really dont know what the heck is wrong with me, but heck care.
it's like my period just over, and then i start to get all MOODY.
but before that i was happy.
hello, i mean it's like supposed to be the other way round right??
whatever.
today all we did was to prepare for UG day.
im like so excited and nervous.
we lackered the words and pictures of the banner today.
the smell was so strong i almost fainted.
it was as if someone was strangling my throat because it felt tight..
blearghhh.
oh yeah heys serena got a new funky haircut.
and i do mean FUNKY.
okok i shall not elaborate in case...
hahhaha.
oh i cut my hair too.
everyone could tell.
it's like exploding at the top but it's much thinner now.
more funky.haha.
and much more weiirddd.
yeahs.according to serena and gina.
i am still so pissed off because of thaht stupid thing.
i mean like shes so dam PETTY LAHS.
stupid..stupid..this is STOOPID.
how the hell are we going to finish our projects if it continues liddat...
fuck.fucking.fucking hell.
i wish there was a word more vulgar than fuck.
cuz it cant seem to make my anger all evaporate.
shall continue from where i stopped
ok
i am the usherer of TKSS with jolene of sec 1
eeeyeer sickening
think abt it
me?
me ushering those bitches from that bitch sch??
no wayyy.
*pukes**falls off chair*
i wan to usher bedok green lah
cheryl there
i dont care i am changing with serene
and then i can be with atiqah my darling patrolmate.
hope i dun get caught xia.
i nervous nervous
it's like THIS SAT LAH
wonder whether it will be successful
diao-ness.
shifted benches and tables...
hands dam tired
and then somemore today had to lug home all my blooody books
man i had the most number of books to carry in the class
cause you know i NEVER study
i dump every single shit under my table
totally no more space.
hahahahahahhaha/
i going to change skin soon
i dun reely like this skin
so boring
want to change to something more exciting more fun
oh yar today in the bus dam farni k
me and maxine and nelia and serene went up the bus and then we were like
carrying so many books
you know i got a GIGANTIC box from the drinks stall aunty
ice mountain oneand believe it
my books were filled to the brim
and it was liike so darn frigging heavy lahhs
serene and nelia went to the back of the bus and me and maxine were like stuck in front cause we all had alot of books on a chair
then the bus stopped and me and her went to the back
while walking halfway and muttering
" excuse me..excuse me..sorry.."
suddenly the bus jerked
and i stood beside the ez link card machine holding my GIGANTIC BIG HEAVY HORRENDOUS BOX OF BOOKS
and then i found myself with no support whatsoever
and then i sort of shouted in the bus" oh no cannot liaos.i die liaos.cannot.oh shit oh shit!!"
and then maxine and nelia and serene started laughing like mad
so pai sehhing
went home
had to walk a little dist.
and the bloody box was so heavy i tot i would die!
went home
gasping gasping at the doorstep
mummy opened the door
and i acted like i was half dying
"mummy...quick..quickly open the doo..or..."
"aiya, stop acting cute again lah."
diao-ness.
good luck for UG day ppl.

`6:01 AM
shut up; get out of my life

Monday, May 16, 2005

my life is like going downhill okay.
chill yunting.you know perfectly well that you did not do anything wrong.
you did not do anything wrong.
you did not do anything wrong.
you did not do anything wrong.
so why the heck am i feeling so guilty then?
why why?
i dont really care anymore.maybe i should just cut the crap and get on with it.
so, me and her were like we dont want her to be in our group so we were considering to write her this real nice letter explaining everything.
why we didnt want her in our group, is highly confidential.
it's nothing much actually.
anyway.
well. so my friend was like passing her the letter outside the class before she was going for cca and then she just STOOD outsidee there with my classmate reading it and then she started barging into the class, in front of my table demanding to know the reason why.
so i was like, mumbling to myself, "i told you i have my own reasons."
and then she was like, " if you and her get into another group, then what about me?"(eyes red)
and i was like oh shit i am going to be so DEAD.
in fact, i so totally was.
and then after about one or two minutes, she continued rambling on and on and on, "do you know i have already had a very bad week and you both still...how could you do this to me? why?why? can you stop giving me that indignant look like you did nothing wrong? are you using me? just because shes not there for you during recess? you treat me like a substitute..am i really your true friend?"
and then i cried.
as in like, totally cried.
in about a few seconds later i was like sobbing uncontrollably and i was still looking at the floor and i really CRIED.
it's like, no one was ever so nasty to me before.
" you are SO NASTY to me! how could you do this to me? how? why? tell me why!!now!!i want to settle all these now! whats the reason? can you say something? SAY SOMETHING! tell me what you think of me.whats yr impression of me?i know you hate me now.i know. i know it."
"i dont hate you, and dont anyhow accuse me of that."
thats what i only said throughout the whole, oh, i dont know, half an hour long quarrel.
i didnt even say anything else.
then nikihla and robyn and dian and unnaa were the only ones talking.they were like, so cool, standing there telling her about the facts of life,counselling her about friendship, that you dont have to always tell each other secrets. and that you certainly CANT force someone to tell you their problems.
"i mean like, when i am talking to her, she just nods her head, like shes not interested to listen to what i have to say.SHE JUST NODS HER HEAD!"
dian:" the fact that she nods her head indicates that she is even listening to you! isnt it even better than having someone to totally IGNORE you??at least she listens!"
to which my respond was, sobbing even harder.
and maxine and dian and xiuqi dragged me to the toilet. i couldnt even STAND properly.i was like, totally dizzy.
my whole face was red. and i was temporarily blind.i was like, "omg, yunting, why the hell did you cry? why?you have no reason to cry! none at all!"
toot-ness.
went back.the quarrel got even more heated.
after half an hour, jun rui shouted, " STOP! EVERYONE GO HOME! GO HOME AND THINK IT OVER YOU BOTH!CALM DOWN OVER THE WEEKEND, AND YOU CAN TALK ON MONDAY MORNNG!"
i immediately stood up, grabbed my bag and was ready to leave the class.waited for maxine.
she and my classmate went off for ccas.
and then abt 5 minutes later i was laughing with maxine again.
seriously, what is the MATTER with me?
how could one be crying one moment, and then laughing the next?
hahas.
but in the end maxine had to go off with her mother, and then i took the 31 home with nelia and deborah.
but they two didnt even talk to me cuz i was like crying in the bus which is like,so dumb of me, cuz my seniors were in the bus larhhh.i think they laughed at me.

i just lent the whole ju on series from weena.
i suddenly had this big huge urge to watch horror movies. so since i cant watch house of wax i thot might as well borrow from weena.
and i watched two of them already.
one on friday midnight by myself, and the other on sat broad daylight.
believe me, if you watch ju on, forget about sleeping.
nono, im serious. seriously.
the ring was just as scary as this.
and then the cover weena lent me was like, ewww. it showed the ju on boy's face on the cover with the black liquid enclosed inside so it kinda, flows on the boy's face.
morbid.
and i remember sitting in my room watching on the portable tv all by myself...and then i got eletrocuted.
i dunno what the hell happened, but i sorta, you know, touched the side of the portable tv after i charged it, and then i touched the side and i felt this creepy tingling sensation down my whole body and i knew i was being eletrocuted.so i jerked my finger away and started screaming.
oh yeah, right, right before the movie even started.
hahaaaaaa.
the movie started.
yeah, and i started screaming.
"gor...gor...watch it with me pls..i very scared xia..."
"shut up and get a grip on yrself."
i particularly disliked the part when the ghost hypnotised the security guard into the female toilet and then this REALLY CREEPY black hooded figure came out later. and then the figure blocked up the whole cctv and i saw his bloody eyes.
okay, not bloody.
they were blue.
whatever.
go watch ju on yrself, people.
went home with xiu qi.
she and i toked and toked non stop.
it's real fun sitting with her in a bus.
i wanted company.
i was scared.
natasha was scared.
11 of us stayed back to watch.
and we were all creeped out in the dark classroom.
so yeah, well..we all went home.
i dotn think anyone of us wil be able to sleep.

`3:11 AM
shut up; get out of my life

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

haish.
nowadays life kinda sucks.
my social life's been going downhill
i need to socialize more
definitely
jia yous yun ting
i am dam pissed off at 3 ppl abt 2 matters
first of all
i am sick and tired of everything
i dun wan to be the one who apologises for EVERY SINGLE THING
esp when i have done nothing wrong
she gets angry over the STUPIDEST reasons
i cant stand it anymore
fuck it
heck care
i dont care anymore
f-u-c-k lah.
i feel like swearing and cursing at anyone i see now
and then another matter is
that i dont like the way they are treating her lols
it's like so racist
how can this class be bonded if this continues?
grrrrrrr.'
*curses and swears*
ok.i am a FOULMOUTH.
i need new friends.
really.
and i need to bond with my patrol.
like, go out or smt.
tmr guides.
got scienzation dae.
then go for guides first then scienzation den guides again.
i swear life sucks.
i have no true friends.
and a reminder to everyone esp you, you and you:
friends dont always have to stick to each other.mixing arnd is better.
and dont be angri at me.
you hv no reason to.
whatever.
saya sakit lah.
bullshit.
fucking k.

`7:09 AM
shut up; get out of my life

Saturday, May 07, 2005

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to darling anime-maniac serena yeo su min
happy birthday to you!

well, happy birthday ok.yr prezzie is coming SOON.
we all lurvveeeeee you!!!

`10:12 PM
shut up; get out of my life

gosh i am so darn happy
changed my skin and added music to my blog
i lurve this song lonely by akon
it's like so darn cutee
just figured out how to put music to my blog
so yeah anyone wants help with yr blog ask mie kaes?
this weekend is like so boring
theres hist ca tmr
i better go study
plus i have a moutain of tuition homework
yesterae i had a new tuition math teacher
her name is merry
not mary
hahas her name so cute
and she looks like shes from china
but she dooesnt have the slang
but who cares
shes nice and sweet
GOOD.
before tt in th morning
went for kumon
so tired go home straight away

`9:44 PM
shut up; get out of my life

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

i got a post.
public relations officer.
i feel like laughing.
they must have either made a BIG mistake, or they ramdomly picked and chose my name.
they must have been sitting at that table there and looking at the namelist and closing their eyes and anyhow picked my name.
ooooo-kays.
oh wells
i wanna congratulate me darling old maxine
for getting 2 roles
PS and colour party!
whee!
i feel so darn happy for her, and yeah for myself too.
whee.
cassie was not the colour party, and i am like so darn shocked.

`6:04 AM
shut up; get out of my life

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

wah lao ehhh.
i dam bloody stressed lorh.
noe wad today after sch melwang asked me to call all the sec 2s to go and fotostep their progress reports by tmr recess and pass it to me
want me to die issit
i cant possible call them all by tonight
luckily the problem half solved now so nevermind
but tmr morning gonna be so darn busy
must go to all the sec 2 classes to write on the board
and then also need to bloody go to mdm seah to go and check art marks
cuz i got a bloody freaking zero
half the class got zero
because it is all her freaking fault
she keeps losing all our art work
dam lah
have to go and clarify
or else i have to go and print again
i bloody dunno how to print an invitation card lah
i had a bad bad hard time printing it out
and she had ter go and lose it
bloody shitty
today science ca i thought i could score
the paper not haas hard as i thought it would be
infact
all the things that i studied for were quite useless
memorizing all the reproductive parts took me hours and none of them came out
instead tested on osmosis
im so dead
i lost many many marks
because i got the principle wrong
everyone also
HOW?HOW????????
how am i gonna survive..
i wanna get out of remedial
it sucks man
taking alot of my time
so much to do yet so little time
got back my science mcq
and i just passed
got a bloody 6
ahahhahaha i got average
good enough lar huh
bloody lah i pmsing
nowadays stressing and mugging
stoning and slacking
the whole long weekend i was doing my tuition homework
must be about 800 questions in all lah
and i finished all the fractions questions in one and a half days
wah lao dam tired lols
but i thought that i had better get it done over with than to start worrying abt them on friday afternoon
yeah
so
the shrimps that me unnaa and jael caught at changi beach all died
today natasha caught a monitor lizard
it looks so darn cute man
and i am soooo totally jealous
i wanna catch a monitor lizard also
doing my art now
the instructions and the theme and aim and purpose
and i owe TONS of ppl letters.
lemme count..1,2,3,4,5 letters!
not as if i am going to bother to write them.
at least, not now anyway.
oh yeah forgot to post abt my lit play.
it was a success.
that is, if you dont count the part that i talked too FAST.
grrrrrrrrr..my tongue was all tied up, see.
and i was so nervous.
somemore i was the lead role player.
why do i always end up getting the lead role?
stressful, but fun.
and also the part when i died and i was lying on the floor
and natasha had to lean down on me and cry and howl
but the funny thing was that when she saw my face she started laughing like mad
her face got all scrunched up
heeheeheehahahahawwwwwww!!!!HAHAHAHA!!!i felt like LAUGHING TOOO!!
DARN FARNI LOLS!!!
wanted to present again but jael dint wanter..
and she showed us a bit of her face too..
oh wells..
nvm i dint say anything.
mdm haryati is not giving back to us our lit ca
sheesh
i waited soo long for it
cant wait to see me results
scared tt i fail
but then
i put alot of my effort into doing it
yeahs cuz i love lit
it's not boring lah ppl relax..
haish.
finished my art.
and it looks darn ugly.
but it doesnt count in the marks cuz mdm seah onli wanted to see the words not the deco right?
todae wanted to go pon third lang xia
but in the end i didnt
i felt so bloody bad
cuz i have never ever ever ever pon anything at all in my WHOLE ENTIRE FRIGGIN LIFE
and i so proud to say that
i dont like to pon lah
actuallyanto go bugis with su suan
wanted to watch house of wax
we had been toking abt it for quite awhile
but guess wad.
we found out that it's not even OUT yet.
darn stupid lols we right?
in the end i went for third lang
dun wanna pon
pon next time lah huh
i very guilty leh
very very guilty
i scared su suan angry with me
everytime we plan to go out shopping in the end i always back out
im such a friggin bitch man
sorrie sorrie
just now when i called her she tok to me so dao lorh.
oh noooooooooooooooo.
but she went out with elenna wad.
haha.
i shld keep a distance away from my juniors now, even if they are my direct or indirect ones.
i shouldnt let them take advantage of me like some ppl.
im pissed off.
im their senior okayyy.
o-k-a-y.
and looking on the bright side.
I GOING TO BEIJING DURING THE HOLS! WHEE!
from june 11 to 18 i think.one week.
carn wait.
anyone want to see me off at the airport. no one.
everybody hates me.
and, OMG.i just checked the guides blog.
YOU KNOW WHAT??
I AM IN THE SAME COMMITTEE AS MAXINE AND REGINA MY BEST BUDS!
okay, maybe they dont treat me like their best buds.maxine already has so many best friends.regina, already engaged to her darling fiance.soooo gr8t right.life rocks.haha.lol.
WE ARE THE USHERERS! WHEE!!!
and how come there are only 3 of us?
hahah.we are under HER.
eeeyer.i dun like her.so bossy.
but hu cares?
aiyoyo.they post at 11 pm lah!
so bloody late.shall tell maxine the good news tmr in the sch bus.yipee.
luckily im not in the same committe as any juniors.
tmr guides.boring boring.
no sec 4s, half the sec 3s gone.
what the hell.
no, it's worse than hell in here.
no more hui ying, no more debo.
boohoo.
mummy i feel like crying.
oh wait.i just saw something and i cant believe my eyes.
oh nothing dun wanna say it.
my dad asking me to go to sleep.
i havent even completed or done my homework
and it's 11 30pm now.
i dint even bring my math and hist tb wb home.how?
shall iron my bloody scarf now.
i feel irritable.VERY.OH SO VERY.

`5:47 AM
shut up; get out of my life